Who is Taekhesis?

If you’ve found your way here, you probably know me from one of the platforms — CrushOn, LinkinLove, CraveU, TipsyChat, Saucepan, SeaArt — or maybe you stumbled across one of my characters and followed the trail back. Either way, welcome. I figured the first thing I should do is actually introduce myself.

Let’s start with the name, because people do ask.

Taekhesis is a misspelling. Specifically, it’s an accidental misspelling of Takhisis — the dark goddess from Dragonlance, for anyone who wants to show their age alongside me. The handle was mine decades ago, gaming days, long since retired. When I started building bots and needed something to put on the door, it felt right to resurrect it. A goddess of darkness and deception fronting a catalogue of morally grey characters and slow-burn obsession? It fits.

The Writer Part

I’ve been a writer my whole life — and I mean that literally. My dad still has pieces of paper somewhere with my scribbles on them, his careful handwriting underneath transcribing what I told him the story was about. I was three. I couldn’t write yet. I was already narrating.

By six I had my first actual short story. It was awful. It will never see the light of day. By ten I had another one, heavily derivative of Tolkien and Robert Jordan because I was deep in a fantasy kick — also awful, also never seeing the light of day. And by fifteen I was working on the first draft of a fantasy saga I’m still working on now, through three reiterations and two full rewrites, and at this point I think I’m writing it for myself more than any future audience. That’s fine. Some stories are just yours.

My point is: this was never a new hobby. It was always there. Bot-building just gave the stories somewhere to go that wasn’t a Word document no one would read.

How I Actually Got Here

I came to CrushOn as a user first. I was exploring the platform, learning my way around, when I came across a character by a creator called DiddyMagpie. I had absolutely no idea what I was looking at. So I did what any reasonable person does: googled it.

That rabbit hole was omegaverse. Several hours later I had a new obsession, a lot of questions, and an unstoppable urge to try building something myself.

My first bots were never meant for anyone else — just me, learning the craft, building characters I wanted to interact with. Private experiments. Two of them are still sitting in a folder somewhere. They might see the light of day eventually, in a revamped form. Maybe.

Then I made Kaelen Silverwood.

I genuinely did not understand what was happening when the notifications started coming in. People were liking him, favouriting him — I remember being actually confused. It wasn’t the plan. There wasn’t a plan. But that’s the thing about Kaelen: he had a life of his own almost immediately, and I had to catch up.

After that, I learned. Trial and error, mostly, but also with real generosity from creators who knew more than I did — Norisor and RaonLee especially, who were patient with my questions when I was still figuring out what I was doing. I owe them both more than I’ve probably said out loud.

The Platforms

CrushOn was first and is still home base — it’s where I have the most followers and where I’ve spent the most time learning what works. From there I expanded to LinkinLove, CraveU, TipsyChat, and Saucepan as each platform found me or I found it. I had a brief stint on MyDreamCompanion too, which didn’t stick, but was part of the journey. More recently I joined SeaArt, where I maintain SFW versions of many of my characters under a signed creator agreement — which is its own interesting creative exercise, working within different parameters.

Each platform has its own community and its own rhythms, and the same character can land very differently depending on where you play them. That’s something I find genuinely interesting rather than annoying, most of the time.

The Community Part

Something I didn’t expect when I started building was how much of this would be about the people.

I run a Discord server called Velvet Haven, which has grown to over 500 members — something that still stops me short when I think about it. I’m also part of the Vamps Den, the Raccoon Hideout, and a few other servers where bot creators and players overlap in ways that have genuinely shaped how I work. The collaborators I’ve found along the way — RaonLee, GanGan, AvacynGrace, Norisor, Valanadesu, and others — have made things I couldn’t have made alone.

This hobby is more communal than it looks from the outside. The characters are solo work, but the creative world around them isn’t.

What I Make and Why

What I build tends to run dark. Slow burn. Morally grey characters with complicated interiors, worlds with lore you can actually sink into, openings that put you right in the middle of something tense. That’s what I love to write, so that’s what I build.

I’ve been asked why dark specifically, and the honest answer is that it’s where the interesting character work lives for me. A man who is genuinely dangerous but not simply evil. A relationship with real stakes. A world that has history and weight. That’s what I’m chasing when I sit down to build — not shock value, just depth.

This SubscribeStar (the Taeship) is where I’m going to start talking about it properly — the process, the craft, the characters, the occasional honest post-mortem on something that didn’t work. If you’re a creator looking for a peek behind the curtain, I hope there’s something useful here. If you’re here because you love the characters, I hope you find something that makes them feel even more alive.

Either way, I’m glad you’re here.

— Tae